where am i?

Guys, please ignore this post. ;D

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sicked ; slept
Once again, I'm absent from school.. =]

I can see that my blog's already half-dead now, hahas.
But I still don't have the mood to blog.. ;(
I think I'm having depression.
I'm depressed to the point that I, myself think that I should look for a psychologist.
But no thanks, those stuffs are pricey~ x.x
Plus, I'm not going to suicide (yet) ;D

The reason why I don't wanna blog is that I'm too depressing T_T
If I were to make myself blog daily (or even just weekly)
I may end up posting similar stuffs every time.
So I rather not blog and just leave it be than making people feel bored/annoying/depressed when reading my blog.

Anyways, Zu Hun's over.
We got 0 this year.
Oh well, we tried our best..
At least we gained experience and had fun ^^

One more thing, I cancelled my bass performance this year.
I'm too tired..
People asked me to organize my time well, I did.
I had enough time, I had enough rest.
But most importantly, something's missing.
I'm not happy
I only want to concentrate on my studies now, nothing more.

Friends?
Are people who support you and push you from behind.
In the end, you still have to rely on your own feet to move forward.

Friends?
I love you all
I know I'm no good at all..
I'm stupid, stubborn, hot-tempered, emotional, selfish, cold, mean towards everyone.
And I deserve to be deserted and ignored at all times.
But no matter what I do, I still love you guys.
Really

Once again, I lost sight of my track.
What am I doing?
What am I fighting for?
Those questions kept repeating itself in my mind.
Someone.. Help me

End of post.
Don't mind me, I'm just another person in depression.
Maybe my brain malfunctioned after eating some medicine 20 minutes ago. (excuses)

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Guys, please ignore this post. ;D
-po0f-