♥ Random ♥

“我们分手吧”
“别跟我开玩笑，我心脏承受不了啊。哈哈！”
“我是认真的。。”
“夜，这笑话一点都不好笑。你真没幽默感～”
“别再说了，我们已经结束了。”

看着我的眼眶泛泪，他的脸上便出现了莫名的哀愁。
他不敢直视我的原因，是悲伤，不舍？ 还是愧疚，悲愤？
我胸前开始隐隐作痛，黑暗也顿时吞噬了我的世界。
几天没见，为何他憔悴了许多？
几天没见，为何他脸上显出无比的冷漠与哀痛？
我们之间的距离变得很遥远。
区区的几天，站在我面前的这个人已遥不可及。
难道就如蕊玲所看见的，夜他。。
他背叛了我？

“是不是。。。她？”我问道。
“这和她没关系，你别把外人扯进来。”
“那为什么？”
“我爽。”
“这是什么烂理由！要分手的话，你至少也要给我个能让我心服口服的理由吧？”
“就说我们已经结束了，我用什么废物理由关你什么屁事？”
“这当然跟我有关系！你脑经出了什么问题啊？”
“当初我们就不该有瓜葛。像你这种书呆子和我这样的流氓在一起，根本就是个天大的笑话。和你在一起，我想，我是瞎了眼！”

当时，我脑子一片空白。从来不曾对我大小声的夜，竟然说了那么过分的话。
这大幅度的转变，到底发生了什么事？难道我做错了什么？

“你！回答我最后一道问题！”
“你很烦啊！滚！”

毒针似的言语从我心里穿过，这就是我们之间最后的对话？自从我们俩的不期邂逅，夜和我一直都形影不离。就如我世界里的彩虹，是他给了我生命的色彩。从来不曾让我受委屈的他，竟然转换成是伤害我最深的人。
我真笨，被人愚弄还不知情。
或许我是这世界上最自以为是的傻蛋。。哈哈哈！

“夜，你去死！”

被怒火冲昏头的我。说了气话，含着泪，掉头走了.
一边奔跑，一边大哭，我早已压抑不住情绪了。
现在，我一点都不想面对现实，一心只想逃避。
就连回家的路也已经搞不清楚。
在我离开夜的那一瞬间，我完全的崩溃了。

或许是我在作梦吧。。
夜的脸上虽是一副很不屑的表情，但在他的眼角眉梢却凝聚着浓浓的忧郁。
隐隐约约地，我看见他低下头说了一些东西。
至于说了什么，我已不在乎了。

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“惠，你要幸福。”

YOU

If there's a devil dwelling inside you, how would you behave youself?

Everytime I look into the mirror, I see a stranger.
It feels wrong to wake up every morning and look at a stranger in the mirror.
But that's my life, no?

To tell the truth, I don't know myself.
And I'm not afraid to say it out loud, that I'm not who you see me as.
The reason behind it?
I couldn't find 'me', so I don't know 'me'.
Makes sense? ;3

I don't love myself..
So I dare not to love others.
Sorry to i-don't-know-who-should-i-apologize-to.
LOL ;x
-po0f-

busy weekend

我的帅哥老公

别人的书，我借来拍。 ;x

千人宴。
（怎么没人的？ 因为全部人回家睡觉咯～）

表演的舞台

人造莲花？

是花灯啦～

美吧？三圣佛堂那儿拍的。;D

繁忙的星期，我并不讨厌。
因为，我终于觉得..
我还活着。 ^_^

random ;3

新加坡，我来也！
Bought the flight ticket to Singapore already, yay!
I wont be at Kuching for 5 days starting from 28th May and I'll be back before the “族魂” night.
(which is at the time after we finish our mid term exam)
As usual, I'm not in the mood to study~
Vacation mood ♥

One more thing to say..
I love mua life! ;x

False Hopes

Standing aside, I can only watch as people progress.
The ups and downs of their story, I don't give a damn.
The truth is..
I've hidden my envy side with the mask of wrath.

I'm bearing the sins I've committed.
And I walk the path of punishment.
I knew it'll never happen between us, cause it's what I deserve.
Yet I couldn't control myself to hope that miracles will happen.

The trap of miracles
I've fallen into it and trying to get myself out.
I've committed a crime of being stupid enough to hope for impossibilities.
It's always been like this.
It's the law of this world after all..

Remember child
A devil will never be associated with love.

-Ryu-

last-minute

Guys, I just remembered that I have something to say here.
I'm now announcing to everyone that..

This blog is officially dead. ^^

The End.

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Hiya peeps!
Long time no see again? ;D
As you can see, I'm too lazy to update my blog these days.
There's nothing much to blog about when my days are just repeating itself.
So.. Why bother repeating myself in every post? ;x

I wanna go to Singapore!!
I realised how much I miss those shopping malls and stuffs about Singapore.
There's tons of things in my SG trip shopping list~
How I wish my mum will won the first prize in 4D then we can finally "fly"! ;x

Even though I dun wanna admit it, but I'm being last-minute again.. -sigh-
No use hiding it..
The fact that I don't know what to buy for Ying tomorrow @_@
Yesh, he'll be older tomorrow~
He's gonna celebrate his sweet 17th.
But still..
-draws circle-
I couldn't get him a present on time T_T
I wanted to buy him a *xxxxxxx*(secret) actually, but couldn't find nice ones in Kuching.
I can only think of Singapore where I can see them almost everywhere on the streets.
Singapore.. =(

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I wonder if it's alright for me to open up..
Am I allowed to?
Was afraid of falling when I stand up again,
so I chose to never stand up and never move forward.
But now.. I'm lost.. x.x

4/4/09

Went through an "unreal" day ..
Some things just happen like this, and I don't even have the time to think and react properly.
I don't know what I did today, I don't know what I said today.

I wanna remember about stuffs today, 4/4/09.
The day when I first encounter the ugly side of this world.
The ugly side of the ****(s) =x
(censored to avoid problems xD)
But no matter how much i try to refresh my memories of that time
I couldn't.
STML alrdy T_T
(It happened on 7.45+pm, awhile ago only x.x)
I only remember it clearly dat ying paid RM10 for nothing =\
(for not being hurt maybe? lols..)

Watched "Knowing",
and I'm soo confused.
By the movie and by what had happened today..
Even though I did nothing much on this day, I'm so tired..
Wanna play audi now, but I'm out of energy x.x
Guess I'll go slp barhs..
-po0f-