bahhs!

Hiya guys! ^^
Just passing by to post something and add new stuffs to my blog, hahas..
I have to admit that I had mood swings yesterday, just moody? ;x
I almost forgot how it felt to be depressed already..
But it came back to me yesterday, for no reason

I felt miserable, even though my life's good.
I got pissed at everyone (everything), even though they're not at fault.
I missed everyone, even though I just met them awhile ago.
I felt like crying, even though I'm happy with everything.
I stood still outside my house, even though it's raining cats and dogs.
It's my sign of depression

Lols, it's been quite some time since I've been in the rain.
Stood out there for almost 4 minutes and the rain kept pouring till I was wet all over.
My mind's blank, and I couldn't think of anything.
Wanted to play audi to keep myself busy but audi was patching so I got nothing left to do.
I walked around and wandered at my own house like a stranger
That's when the rain came, and it just fits my mood perfectly.
Stood for 4 minutes at the backyard, and just when I step in the house.
The rain stopped.. LOL!
Maybe it's the gift from god to me?
To let me cool down and stop thinking about nothingness~

But after all..
I'm still not back to my usual self, so I went to msn and spam clicked the status change. ;x
I repeatedly switched my status from away to busy
Maybe I was just trying to get people's attention and to look for someone to let me spam.
But I was ignored.
LOL! yeah yeah~ I know I lame die ;x

After minutes of status switching.. Finally a victim!
Chatted for awhile with the person and felt better, the feeling of annoyance was gone without the need to spam others.
That's when mum came home and I went to bath, hahas
Even though he/she may not know I'm talking about him/her..
Or I should say that he/she will not even bother reading my blog.
I still want to thank him/her
谢谢你 :)

And soo..
I'm backkk! ;DDD
Not really sure what I'm up to lately myself..
Just some to take note:
- There's extra practice for Zu Hun that's coming soon on 27/6
- Not playing "I Feel Good" during the year end performance but Nich added 2 DIFFICULT ones for me T___T
- I got my papers back, and I failed one of my papers — History
This is the 1st time in highschool life that I flunked my paper but I wasn't shocked, it's already expected ;)
- I quitted two of my tuition classes, Physics and Chemistry.

There'll be intense practice for Zu Hun and bass starting frm now, but I have to study at the meanwhile.
(I doubt I'll touch my book at home x.x)
Since I quitted tuitions, I should really revise them at home.
Someone just buy my mum a cane and beg her to force me to study pls.. ;(

I went for bass class few days ago after 1 month of holiday..
Nothing much changed, it's still the same there. ;D
How much I miss the time when I was jamming with the others ♥
Was told that the "I Feel Good" song was removed and informed about the addition of 2 more songs for me.
Super hard ones..
There's even a solo part for 1 of the song, and I won't make it.
The speed's too fast for me x.x
But Nich said something that made me wondering that time..
“依华，我最讨厌你这个样子。”
“你其实是做得到的，但你就是缺少自信心。”
“谁理你？我说你能玩这首歌你就能玩，不要吵！”
I will have confident in myself if I'm capable of doing it, but how can I be confident of myself when I know that I couldn't do it at all? T_T
I don't wanna put so much hopes on myself cause I know I'm not good in doing anything.
It's just like when you run faster, the more painful the fall it will be. ;(
有自知之明，难倒是个错误？

Okayy, stopping here.
Tatas all~
-po0f-

Peaceful Moments

One day left to the end of school holiday..
And I haven't started my Add. Maths project, as usual ;D
Skipped tuition and classes for more than 1 month, including the ones pon-ed during exam period.
Woot! I'm so proud of myself~ — NOT
Thought of quitting all tuition and study at home, but I guess it's impossible..
Unless someone hide or break my comp ;x

Basically, I spent my time at home mostly for almost 2 weeks doing stuffs that I don't know what is it.
I know you guys wanna praise me for my ability to waste time, thanks ^^

Went to celebrate Maggie's b'day last Saturday with the usual gang, excluding ah bong.
He's at Miri i tink, he should be glad though..
At first we planned to go to Havanna, but it's closed that night.
Maybe cause of the someone-someone's birthday that makes that day a public holiday.
I thought it's some gabenor's b'day that day, but it isn't.
So I have no idea who's b'day it is now x.x

Since Havanna's closed, we went to bla bla bla instead.
All the restaurants at that area are almost the same, especially when you compare their food prices. Not much different anyways~
Spent RM45 that night for a fish and a glass of honey lime.
(All that's left of my tuition fee is RM5 T_T)
Only the girls ate though, the guys just sat there and waited for us to finish our food.
So that they could proceed to McD for cheaper food, lols ;D
We talked and laughed out really loud, and we got 'shhh'-ed by an Indian uncle next our table -_-
Wanted to leave cause dun wanna look at his dulan face anymore, but he left before we did. LOL!
Cause we're still talking talking talking~
After I went to toilet with laopeh, he's gone~ xD
Being lazy to walk to McD for the b'day cake, we sat down again.
Sang the birthday song and blew candles, Maggie's now officially seventeen!
(Even though her b'day is actuall the next day, LOL! But nehmind~ ;x)

Cakeee~

Laopeh & Laobu

Sorry 4gt to take pic of the cake-blowing moment.
So the cake's replaced with a.. Cup?

Who said we couldn't take pictures of 3 person? ;D

Then, err..
Dat's all I tink?
Next~

Went for steamboat on Tues with some member's of Hopez,
along with chon fan's cousin and his fren.
We just ate and ate and talked, so..
Next~

Hohoho!
Fridayyyy ;D
Was informed of the Damai plan last-minute at Thursday 10.30pm, when my mum's already sound asleep.
It's to bring Apple and his aunt and sis around Kuching, cause he came from Singapore 2 days ago i tink.
Asked for permission to go from my mum when she's in a bad mood cause I woke her up by hopping on the bed. LOL! xD
Not sure what to pack but I managed to bring some clothes somehow while afk-ing in audi.
Injured myself in the mist of excitement during the search for clothes.
Yesh, i got injured again ;D
4th injury since the start of this holiday, hahas!

Okayy, so I followed mum to factory early in the morning.
We said to meet up at 8.30am for the shuttle at 9am.
Dad brought me to Holiday Inn at 8am, which is now called Grand Margerita or something.
Waited for Mistress & others at the main entrance while listening to songs to calm myself down xD
I wait and wait and wait, LOL!
Then mistress reached and called me asking where I am.
She couldn't find me so I went to find them instead, at the door near the cafeteria.
Seriously, I'm super nervous at that time. x.x
I quickly hid myself behind the walls after I saw them, but Cindy saw me ;(
Happy but nervous at the same time, hahahas~

Finally got the guts to face them, I walked and hugged Cindy who's the nearest to me.
Cindyyy ♥
Second is mistress ♥ ;DD

Oops, there's another cff meeting now.
Heard that kaka, pao & vivi's gonna go.
And I tink I'm almost late for the meeting, LOL!
brb, will continue posting later when I'm back

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Sorry, was too tired and quite busy with my Add. Maths project since evening yesterday.
Don't really have the free time to sit down and continue typing this superrrrrrr long post. ;D
But here I am~
Though I think that I wouldn't be able to finish this post.
Cause school starts 2molo again ;(
But anyways, let's continue the stuffs about Friday!
It'll be just a brief one x.x
I'm tired, need more sleeeeep!

Met Mistress & Cindy and hugged them.
Greeted apple, his aunt, and his sister Gena*.
Went to Damai using shuttle, and there's only us in it. ;D
Talked and talked as much as we could x)
Time spent with mistress is ♥
Intro-ed her few emo songs on the way there, lol.. xD

Reached Damai at idk what time, and settled down near the beach.
Apple & Cindy walked by their own while me, mistress, and Gena went exploring Damai while stalking them at behind ;x
I miss the beach..




The beach that day was filled with events like, run-and-hide(?), paintball, and the balloon thingy called water zorbing. They're for the upcoming Father's Day of course ^^
At first we thought that they're just annoying and ruined our day at the beach..
But when we heard from the advertising women about it being free for the first ten participants..
*evil grin*
U noe i noe laahs~ ;x

Cindy & appple was the first two to play the water zorbing!
Cindy was sooo scared that she'll drown cause she doesn't know how to swim.
But nvm, apple's beside her anyways~
Laughed like mad when we're looking at those two falling and trying to stanf up in the ball.
Cause we had no idea how hard it is that time, lols..
Sorry but I only took photo of Cin & Apple, others are at mistress's phone. ;D

Here's the brief process of water zorbing!

Don't laugh, cause you don't know how hard it is to even stand up inside. ;(
After the couple's turn, I quickly registered for mistress & myself to play.
Couldn't resist the temptation of it, it lookkks sooooo fun xD
Plus, I don't wanna lose the chance to save RM70 for the event~ $_$
Cause people after the 10th person playing will have to be charged RM70
RM70 for 1 person, RM90 for 2 persons..x.x

The moment I stepped into the ball, one word popped out in my mind.
HOT!
It's seriously hot inside cause it's made of rubber, lols..
Me n mistress was like aiming to reach the boundary of the limited area at first.
But when we got onto the water, apple kept pushing us further and further away from the shore.
So we changed our goal to reach the shore instead.
Everytime we got near to the shore, apple pushed us further away again ~_~
I was like spam shouting "APPLE I HATE U!"
Cause we seriously can't do anything when people's outing pushing/pulling us ;(
If it's not for him me n mistress already succeeded in reaching the shore lehhhs T_T

Okok, after water zorbing we went to swim at the clifftop pool.
Sneaked in the kid's pool at first cause we couldn't swim there without wearing swimsuit
We're not staying at the hotel summore ;x
Then we rushed into the adult's pool when the guard's not looking, LOL!
Cin wanted to learn how to swim and I moved here and there in the water enjoying myself.
(while praying that I wouldn't get hurt cause I fell at the staircase of my sis's condo, got phobia liaos x.x)
Was shoo-ed by the dulan-faced guard like 10-20 minutes later
Not really happy with it, but that's what makes things fun ;D

Soo.. Went to bathe, and head back to town for Hartz at Sarawak Plaza.
It's my first time eating there, and..
Not my type, but the food there aren't bad~
I still want kolo mee!! ;(

Dat's all for friday, the next day is CFF outing as you can see.
Went to The Spring and Hock Lee with mistress, kaka, cindy, apple, and julia. ;D
Apple bought me and kaka and headset and biggg bear respectively.
Super expensive lehhh.. RM109 for my headset x.x
I was just joking when I said I wanted to buy one headset, but since cin & him alrdy bought..
Thanks guys ♥
I'll try not to break it ;x
(Getting more used to it now, compared to last nite)

Hock Lee arcade is funnnnnnn!!
Played the table hockey thing with mistress and our score jammed halfway.
Mistress's leading at that time so she's the one winning ba ;D
Played the game using fake guns name House of Dead.
Two words for it..
FUN DIE! ;x
But hands will be very tired after playing that, hahahas..
We needa spam fire, to kill those zombie things~

Then we went to eat mee jawa~
Stomachache dat time cz ate ice cream at springx.x
okok gtg!
Mum nag nag nag x.x
-po0f-

1st term holiday

Yay for school holiday~
Boo for approaching of SPM. ;(

I'm back from the 5 days Singapore trip!
Regretting the fact that I wasted my time at Singapore to sleep.
But still..
ただいま！
I know, you guys didn't miss me.
But nevermind~
It's enough to know that my hubby#1 and hubby#3 missed me.
(LOL! ;x)

I'm to lazy to post anything about the trip though..
(-(o0)-)
Hehe, so I'll poof for now~ ;x
-po0f-