bahhs!

Hiya guys! ^^
Just passing by to post something and add new stuffs to my blog, hahas..
I have to admit that I had mood swings yesterday, just moody? ;x
I almost forgot how it felt to be depressed already..
But it came back to me yesterday, for no reason

I felt miserable, even though my life's good.
I got pissed at everyone (everything), even though they're not at fault.
I missed everyone, even though I just met them awhile ago.
I felt like crying, even though I'm happy with everything.
I stood still outside my house, even though it's raining cats and dogs.
It's my sign of depression

Lols, it's been quite some time since I've been in the rain.
Stood out there for almost 4 minutes and the rain kept pouring till I was wet all over.
My mind's blank, and I couldn't think of anything.
Wanted to play audi to keep myself busy but audi was patching so I got nothing left to do.
I walked around and wandered at my own house like a stranger
That's when the rain came, and it just fits my mood perfectly.
Stood for 4 minutes at the backyard, and just when I step in the house.
The rain stopped.. LOL!
Maybe it's the gift from god to me?
To let me cool down and stop thinking about nothingness~

But after all..
I'm still not back to my usual self, so I went to msn and spam clicked the status change. ;x
I repeatedly switched my status from away to busy
Maybe I was just trying to get people's attention and to look for someone to let me spam.
But I was ignored.
LOL! yeah yeah~ I know I lame die ;x

After minutes of status switching.. Finally a victim!
Chatted for awhile with the person and felt better, the feeling of annoyance was gone without the need to spam others.
That's when mum came home and I went to bath, hahas
Even though he/she may not know I'm talking about him/her..
Or I should say that he/she will not even bother reading my blog.
I still want to thank him/her
谢谢你 :)

And soo..
I'm backkk! ;DDD
Not really sure what I'm up to lately myself..
Just some to take note:
- There's extra practice for Zu Hun that's coming soon on 27/6
- Not playing "I Feel Good" during the year end performance but Nich added 2 DIFFICULT ones for me T___T
- I got my papers back, and I failed one of my papers — History
This is the 1st time in highschool life that I flunked my paper but I wasn't shocked, it's already expected ;)
- I quitted two of my tuition classes, Physics and Chemistry.

There'll be intense practice for Zu Hun and bass starting frm now, but I have to study at the meanwhile.
(I doubt I'll touch my book at home x.x)
Since I quitted tuitions, I should really revise them at home.
Someone just buy my mum a cane and beg her to force me to study pls.. ;(

I went for bass class few days ago after 1 month of holiday..
Nothing much changed, it's still the same there. ;D
How much I miss the time when I was jamming with the others ♥
Was told that the "I Feel Good" song was removed and informed about the addition of 2 more songs for me.
Super hard ones..
There's even a solo part for 1 of the song, and I won't make it.
The speed's too fast for me x.x
But Nich said something that made me wondering that time..
“依华，我最讨厌你这个样子。”
“你其实是做得到的，但你就是缺少自信心。”
“谁理你？我说你能玩这首歌你就能玩，不要吵！”
I will have confident in myself if I'm capable of doing it, but how can I be confident of myself when I know that I couldn't do it at all? T_T
I don't wanna put so much hopes on myself cause I know I'm not good in doing anything.
It's just like when you run faster, the more painful the fall it will be. ;(
有自知之明，难倒是个错误？

Okayy, stopping here.
Tatas all~
-po0f-